my birthday.

032708 my pre-birthday w/jess, nikki, & stacey.

today’s my dad’s birthday, so before I left for school, I put a "happy birthday" note on his bed while he was sleeping. lol.

surprisingly I got a 10/10 on that chem quiz where I had NO idea what I was doing. lol. horray! after school, nikki & stace picked us up at jess’s house. then we were off to alhambra! went to crepe in the grip first but then we decided that we wanted REAL food so we decided to walk to noodle world. we were a bit worried since nikki & stace weren’t completely sure where it was. -_- but a couple of blocks later we found it. lol.

our first try at cue pics was a DISASTER! lol. we had NO idea what the Japanese directions were telling us and these screen backgrounds kept ..ping on us and hitting stace on the head. lol. we were pretty much winging it the whole time. stupid machine only gives us 10 seconds to pose! o_O madness! haha. it was chaos but it was funny. :) we decided to have another go at it. but this time we actually tried to plan out what poses we were gonna do. yep yep. twas fun. :)

after that we ate some CREPES!! YUMMY! I haven’t had crepes in FOREVER!! I got the usual strawberry, banana, mango, chocolate syrup, w/vanilla ice cream. :) nikki & jess got green tea ice cream while stace went to starbucks and bout tea. lol. poor girl couldn’t eat the crepes cuz of her gum surgery. :/ funny how she put oh… I dunno…. 10 packets of honey in her tea. lol. and poor nikki dropped her crepe on the floor :( but she picked it right up and finished that mofo. lol.

thanks you guys for today! it was fun. :) <3 ya!

me parents ended up going to morongo. sadly they didn’t win anything but at least they had fun. :) I still think it’s funny how my birthday is right after my dad’s. cuz its like… in 1989 for his birthday he got a baby girl. lol. awesome, no?


032808 my birthday w/jess, jean, & ron.

didn’t have class but I went to school anyways. lol. couldn’t just let jess go to school alone and I couldn’t let my parents know I was ditching class. lol. i pretty much just sat there watching naruto from 7am-2. lol. I didn’t mind it at all though. but there were some points where things were getting really sad and I was like "don’t cry stef. not at school!" haha. I was content with my anime but then after a while I was getting huuuunnngrrrryyy.

poor jess had a difficult time printing out her essay. a lot of going back and forth, going upstairs and downstairs. lol. at least she got some exercise from it. :) haha, it’s funny how, this whole week and last week, jess would tell EVERYONE "hey it’s stef’s birthday coming up!" lol. then I’d be like "jess…" and she’d say "what? it IS!" thanks jess. tells me how much you <3 me. lol.

finally the guys picked us up & we ate at niko niko. :) don’t think I’ll get tired of that place. lol. got some teriyaki chicken, crunch roll, and mixed tempura. MMM! Jess bought dessert. green tea tempura ice cream. yummy! funny thing… as we were waiting for our food I hummed and ron said that it reminded him of his lolo cuz he would hum at random times too. I never noticed that I did that until today. and it turns out that I do it A LOT. lol. while we were walking "hmm hmm hmm"… while we were looking at clothes "hmm hmm hmm" lol. I wonder why I do that.

whooped ron’s ass at tetris. haha. before we started playing he was like "ready to get OWNED!?" haha. noob. then played against him in call of duty. he killed me twice at the beginning then I killed HIM twice. then he said "let’s stop. my eyes hurt." haha. excuses! just cuz I’m good. :P

we went to del amo mall for my shopping spree. jess was rather excited to bring me there cuz she said it was HUGE. lol. first we went to a store called culturelove or something like that and then we went to forever 21. I swear… some of the things girls wear these days are just weird or just plain ugly. lol. I would go in, change, walk out, then they’d give me the thumbs up or thumbs down. the head shake or the nod. lol. it was honestly very tiring because there wasn’t a lot that I liked but it was enough. :) "you better be wearing these clothes the next time I see you" demanded ron. lol. "how can you girls shop for so long!? my legs are tired." said ron. silly boy… buyer of tank tops. lol.

now that I think of it. I shoulda just asked my friends to buy me mario kart. lol. X[ thanks you guys for the shopping spree. :) I think your attempt to buy me "girlier" clothes was a success…. I think… lol.

the moment I got out of jean’s car I immediately got into our van and we went straight to red lobster. and bloody hell I was still full from lunch. X[ got some coconut shrimp. sadly no dessert cuz I was full. lol.

today was a good day. except for the fact that my legs hurt and tomorrow I’ll be doing more walking. lol. thanks to everyone that greeted me happy birthday! you guys sure made me feel special and loved. :)


032908 bowling, eating, & shopping w/the short ones. :P (car, ann, zen)

went to jewel city @ glendale. MAN did we suck. lol. poor car and ann. about 75% of their balls were gutters. lol jk. Well around that percentage. haha. at one point I got really excited cuz I got a spare and I started choking on my gum. X[ and both me and ann actually hurt ourselves cuz as we were throwing the ball we hit our leg. still hurts now as a matter of fact. X[ zen was pretty much the best out of all of us. she had 2x more points than all of us. haha. most of the time we’d knock like 1 pin down and we would clap and cheer since most of the time we were getting gutters. lol. though we all sucked at it, it was fun. :)

walked a couple blocks to eat at bj’s. I was pretty hungry since I didn’t eat breakfast. haha. even though we were all hungry… NONE of us finished our food. and yet we still bought the pizookie. :P mmm. white chocolate. so guuuud!

then off to the mall to buy gifts for me & zen. funny thing… I bought like 5 shirts from forever 21 and that totaled out to about $33 and we went to hollister and zen bought just 1 shirt that totaled out to $30. haha. so sad. but hey. we got what we wanted and we were happy. :)

so yeah. I’ve pretty much spent my birthday being a fatass! lol. for 3 days straight I’ve been eating out. noodle world, crepes, niko niko, red lobster, BJ’s. my goodness. so many leftovers to eat! so little time. :P


033008 mini golf w/the cousins. :) (sandy, chris, anty, kevin, justin)

we ended up not going to Golf N Stuff since it was pretty far and too much dinero. I mean, me mum was paying for everything so it was best that we went to the cheaper place. lol. and of course… anty brought her homework along. APES objectives. then she had english homework to do as well… "it’s only an essay" she said. o_O

sherman oaks castle park. the arcade pretty much sucked penis. bloody waste o’ $25 if ya ask me. too crowded with children and the games weren’t so great. and goddam I mean, this guy and this kid were at the air hockey table for just about forever. but I guess it’s ok since he was just playing for the sake of entertaining the kid. ah wells. and after we spent out tix, we just got like 20 rings, a tootsie roll, and some black popper thingy ma bobber. SO worth $25. X[ haha. oh wells.

i really didn’t wanna eat there cuz justin was like "I can smell the food… and it does NOT smell good." or something like that. and honestly, it really didn’t smell good.

golf was fun. but we really sucked at it. well, we weren’t that bad. I got a free golf ball so I just kept it. haha. then chris managed to hit his ball so hard that it fell in the water. silly boy nearly fell in when he tried to retrieve it. lol. wonder what would’ve happened if he DID fall in… hmm. the water looked pretty nasty too. all green and blue. we wondered how the ducks could live with such disgusting gatorade water. oh and kevin managed to break his club. I mean goodness. look away for one second… haha. anyways, he just hid the thing in the bushes somewhere. only one person got a hole in 1. friggin justin. I got really close to getting one though. always so close. X/

mike showed up like… 2 hours late and he was like "ok lets golf!". tsk tsk. a little late sir. so yeah, we played games for a bit and we left to eat. I felt bad that mike couldn’t golf w/us and that we only saw him for like 30 mins. :/

for a while we debated on what we were to do next. food. we drove to fatburger. yummy! but rather expensive if you ask me. lol. we (anty, justin, me) got our food first and yet the other table (sandy, kev, chris) still managed to finish their food WAY ahead of us. lol. well… we ARE the slow eaters AND skinnier ones of the family so it shouldn’t have been a surprise.

we decided to watch a movie at burbank. sandy gave everyone directions to get there… and they were bad. lol. justin ended up all the way at glendale galleria. and chris and kev ended up turning around as well. lol. good job sandy. good job.

I didn’t wanna watch something stupid like superhero movie or drillbit taylor so we ended up watching the bank job. it was kinda slow in the beginning and I couldn’t understand what they were saying at first with all their british slang n stuff. lol. but I quickly got used to what they were saying and the story started to get complicated and cool. despite chris’s opinion that "that movie was whack!" I liked it. I think the problem for chris is that it didn’t have any high speed chases, karate action, techno gadgets, and stuff like that. it was "too oldies" for him. meh. oh wells. I thought it was cool. :)

then we all went our separate ways. but next time… for sure we’re gonna go to golf n stuff cuz they have EVERYTHING! mini golf, lazer tag, bumper boats, indy racing, bumper cars, and an arcade.

oh yeah. sandy was telling us about this donald duck kiddy ride thing at burbank and we couldn’t resist. chris decided to have a go… body rolling all over it. haha. you just HAD to be there. twas funny. :P

anty got me a noice jacket. I’ve been needing one that wasn’t black lol. thanks.
and justin got me pirate cards. haha. YAY! more cards! X] he said that he was gonna buy me a rubber duck but he wasn’t sure if I had it already. haha. thanks justin!

BDAY GIFTS:
kakashi slippers
naruto DS stickers
cue pics
LOTS o’ clothes
jacket from anty
pirate playing cards from justin

yep yep. that was my birthday. :) and now it’s spring break and I really don’t know what to do. :/ I guess I could write that essay and study for that hist midterm coming up… but I REALLY don’t want to. lol. wanna go out but so many ppl have school. X[ ugh.

jess’s birthday coming up! still dunno what’s happening on that day. lol. hope she decides what she wants to do… and soon! :P

gotta sign up for summer school @ pcc. gonna take speech. -_- should get some job applications too… *sigh*

fin.

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032208
ugh these fucking midterms! poly sci and chem. been studying FOREVER but I’m still worried I won’t do well. :/ i can’t afford to fuck up! if i do, that’ll surely just kill my birthday. i’m tired! my brain’s about to explode! it can’t possibly contain so much information! hope my friends are doing well. it’s times like these when i wish i was one of those people that can read a page and understand it in 10 seconds. but alas i cannot. :( i’m just going to have to deal and do my best. good luck my friends on your midterms and praise the lord for spring break. and damn that woman for giving us an essay to write and midterm to study for during, what should be, a relaxing time of the semester.

and here’s a little poem about midterms. :)
midterms suck.
i just want to rest.
i’m tired as fuck.
but I have to do my best.
i want to take a break.
but i can’t at this rate
cuz my grades are at stake.
*sigh* i’ll be staying up late.
-_-

i was looking through old files for some reason. then I found this file titled "eww". lol. oh the memories. it was a really long time ago but i can still remember the taste. -_-

"cheesecake factory.
fettuccini chicken w/sun dried tomatoes...
i ate you at 2.
you were joined by pinkberry at 3.
i felt you churn in my stomach at 4.
you made me cry at 5.
i regurgitated you at 6.
and i’ve been miserable since.
thanks a lot... never again...

anyways... so i’m crying and moaning from the pain, tossing and turning in my bed... i start to gag. then my mom bursts into my room yelling "GET UP!" so halfway to the bathroom i throw up in my mouth... and halfway from the door to the toilet i throw up on the floor. my mom sees the glory of the fresh vomit on the floor and starts to gag. she rushes upstairs and yells for father... he slowly walks downstairs, looks at me (head now in the toilet), then at the floor and exclaims "MASARAP!" i laugh for an instant… then after i immediately continue to throw up. that made me feel so much better. no lie. lol."

032308
easter. hmm. party at anty’s house. and of course… I brought my study material. Sadly I didn’t study that much. Haha. I tried… then I just gave up because things were too loud and there were too many distractions. Ah well. anty was doing her hw as well… even though she had the whole week free to do her work. Haha. oh shame. In about an hour she had a paragraph done. Haha. oh gawd did I hate ms watt’s class. So much annotating! X[ there was an easter egg hunt at some point. We were about to join in since they put money in the eggs but we decided not to.

once I got home I immediately went to cramming all the information into my tiny little brain. I think I did ok. got a good 4 hrs of sleep. :P anyways, gluck to every1 w/midterms this week. happy easter! ^_^

032408
i was freaking out so much and midterms weren’t that bad. poly sci, I think I did ok… hopefully I did better than the last midterm. X[ chem was pretty easy but maybe too easy. last time i said it was easy, i ended up getting a C. don’t wanna jinx it though. oh yeah… so far… me and jess just totally BOMBED 2 chem quizzes in a row. We had NO idea how to do the fuckin problem! ugh. We can’t keep fucking up like this. X[

finally did my monologue today. started tearing up as I was doing it. i must say that it was completely unexpected. I mean, I’ve practiced it so many times I thought the emotion would just go away. guess not. lol. yeah. it’s all good. but then someone was laughing at me… not nice.

note: just because I said that stuff in my monologue, doesn’t mean I still think those things.

lent…
mmm. candy! oh how i missed thee. sweet, delectable candy. haha. could go for some white chocolate kit kat right now… or some skittles… or a snickers. mmm.
i’m pretty surprised that I didn’t buy myself ANY material things. pretty much all I ever bought was food and gifts for ppls bdays.

speaking of birthdays… it doesn’t really feel like it’s my birthday on friday but i’m still excited. lol. not because it’s my birthday but because it’s the day of the stef makeover. haha. jess n jean are gonna attempt to make me more "girly" haha. aww man. i wish keisha were going. she’d know what clothes to pick out for me. haha.

since those 2 midterms are over... i’m back to watching naruto. ugh. took me a while to figure out what episode i stopped at. -_-

yep... busy week i guess... lol well not really. just wed. then lab on thurs. then on fri i’m just gonna go to poly sci then ditch my other classes so i can go out w/my buddies. :)

mhm. was planning to go to sherman oaks to mini golf w/the cousins. but then justin suggested golf n stuff. looks totally awesome. and the prices aint so bad. now THAT i’m excited for. X]

lets see... i SHOULD be doing my essay so i don’t have to do it over break... but oh wells.

fin.

030808charlie’sbirthday.

we ate out to niko niko's with our theatre buddies jonathan and arlene for charlie's birthday. as we waited for our table this one family started bitching because the waitress said that they'd be waiting 5 more minutes and they ended up waiting for 10. o_O goodness people. they really just needed to chillax. yeesh. twas very delicious. and charlie was full as fuck. haha. i'm getting tired of bento kinda. i've been eating too much of it lately. -_- but its still guuud. :P

after that we watched a play at school. It was awesome. WAY better than the play we saw last time. we actually understood the storyline. charlie fell in love with the main character. for many times did she strip down into her undies. haha. really good play though. :) after the play it was off to charlie's birthday party.

play quotes:
"what ya got under there?"
"hot dog!"
"close the blinds."
"what're you doing? you must be doing something. what're you looking at? you must be looking at something."
"his hands were fat."
"I had to get free… didn't i?"

ok now. this will all be just random things that happened at the party.

I saw jean outside and I walked towards the door to join him when I ran into the screen door. -_- it was hilarious and I hope no one saw that. haha.

charlie was getting really wasted and me n jess were trying to help take care of him but at some point I needed help myself. :( but I think I did ok. he wouldn't exactly listen to us though. :/ but hey. at least we tried our best.

random funny thing charlie will say to me for the rest of my life:
"hey stef what'd you do last night?" ;)

we tallied up how many shots he took by marking his arm. 20 supposedly. not completely sure if that's accurate. ahaha.

charlie wanted to try his swisher. he took one puff and decided that he didn't like it. haha. but that's only because he doesn't know how to smoke. noob noob noob. tried another puff and still did it wrong. I don't get it. they smell really good (strawberry, peach, grape) but they really don't taste all that great.

he opened his gifts twice! hilarious I must say.
"I wanna open my gifts."
"but you already did."
"no. I wanna open them."
and so he did... again… he loved them even more opening them a second time. haha.
first time he opened the belt we got him, he friggin whipped it on the ground. haha.
no idea how many times someone called me jessica or someone called jess stef. haha. -_-

I would push charlie ever so slightly and he would stumble backwards and say "don't fucking push me." sorry about that charlie. didn't mean any harm.

and when he sat outside… "I want her to sit on my lap" "tell her to come over here" and we didn't exactly know what to do. I think jess took care of that though.

when he blew out his cake, he fell backwards onto the couch. think he nearly fell on top of the cake though as he was blowing it. the video footage of that is simply precious. I remember getting a lighter and trying to light the cake but someone took it away from me. haha.

a few of our theatre buddies came. they all thought that justin was charlie's brother because charlie mentioned that his party was at his "bros" place. haha. had to clear that up for them. "you can se the resemblance" justin said. haha.

they brought guitar hero. I only got to play once. :( well at least I got to play.
we also played taboo. boys vs. girls. but the guys were the biggest cheaters. yelling "penis!" and "TIME!" every 10 seconds. -_- of course the girls won that game. :) damn cheaters those men. mike was really good.

we started eating ron's beloved carrots. yum yum. I started putting some into ron's drink. haha. dunno if he still ate them though.

yeah. jess was pretty much the mommy throughout the whole night. taking care of charlie and taking care of me. even before we went to bed she stayed up a bit longer to make sure we were all ok. oh jess. I really worried about charlie though. he was always stumbling all over the place… could barely even walk. and still he continued to drink. :( I was scared that he'd like drink too much, pass out, and die or something. cuz it just reminded me of that stupid video they showed us in university 100 where they told a story of how some guy died from drinking too much. X[ anyways. thanks mommy Jessica. lol.

security had to come up and give us a warning because we were too loud. haha. mike even said that they could hear us all the way from the pool. o_O woweee!

we slept at about 3 or so. I remember trying to help clean up before we went to bed. I think I did ok. lol. jess said that they already cleaned up the counter but I got a paper towel anyways and started wiping. haha.

we all fell asleep to justin playing halo. he was makin fun of the aussies he was playing with. no idea if he got any sleep though. he had work at 7.

we woke up at about 8 or 9. not much sleep. I know. kept on trying to fall back asleep but I kept hearing beeping… and moving… and snoring… and farting… haha.

the guys kept on farting all over the place. eww! X[ charlie and phillip kept on going outside to release their toxic gas. haha.

in the morning they all noticed a big blue mark on my arm. I'm not completely sure how that got there though. hmm.

we, not counting sleepy head ron, cleaned up the place the best we could. emptied the bottles and put them in boxes n bags. did the dishes. Put the furniture back. wiped down the counter. the least we could do since they let charlie have the party at their apt and letting us sleep over.

left their apt and we went to the beach. charlie wanted to push me in the water. I said I was ok with it but he changed his mind for some reason. ah wells. cold ass water anyways. and the poor surfers there didn't get any good enough waves. :(

I think ron was still kinda wasted because of the things he said and did in the morning. haha. but then again… he's always weird. lol.

and FUCK man. as we were walking towards our cars. we noticed a white paper on charlie's car! FUCK! and we noticed that we parked where it said "no parking any time" -_- they shoulda just made that shit a fucking red zone. well yeah we were freaking out for a bit but thank goodness jean pointed out that it was just a warning and the fine was $0. phew! haha.

then we went back home. we were planning to eat out w/everyone for lunch but charlie felt like shit so that was it.

there are some things I can't remember of what happened that night but I remember laughing a lot so I guess that's good. haha. and in the morning they kept on saying "can't believe what you did last night stef!" and I'm like wtf because I don't remember doing anything that stupid. X[ and they won't tell me what I supposedly did. ugh.

barely anyone touched the cake. haha. even I didn't eat it. I think I woulda thrown up if I did. hmm. well, we left the cake at their apt and hopefully those guys eat it all up. haha.

thanks again justin and mike for hosting the party and letting us crash. means a lot. :) hope ya kids had fun cuz we sure did.

fin.

quick note on cancer sticks...
I barely did it once or twice a month or just when I was super stressed. up until recently when he told me he just wanted to be friends did I start doing it like crazy. not blaming anyone though. just saying the facts. shouldn't blame anyone for my feelings. don't think he wants me at all now. guess that's ok. it was that plus school... they help me clear my head. calm down. don't think I'll be doing them any time soon though. I've been sick so they won't help at all. not sure if i'm getting better or worse.

p.s. I wanna hang out with the cousins. I miss them. :(

030508duck.

well... today was...

yeah.

it could've been worse… a LOT worse… someone could've gotten hurt... badly...

got home and my parents acted like nothing happened but after dinner they started talking about the incident (i say incident because accident implies that no one is to blame).

of course my mom gave me the bit about "i told you to pray every time before you drive!" and "God is giving you a wake up call!" i know mommy. i really do.

geez stef... are you STUPID. just blanking out like that. stupid stupid stupid.

they all blamed the cake. then they jokingly blamed charlie because if charlie was never born, the cake would never have existed and all this never would've happened. haha.

but still… i can't help but feel like shit.

got to school and i was still shaken up… kinda freaking out a bit. but jess was there to calm me down. thanks jess. :) <3 u

mom called me at least 4 times today asking if i was ok.

funny things my dad said…
"next time… put the cake on your lap… because obviously it's more important than your life."
"better yet, wear it around your neck."
made me feel both better and worse at the same time.

it's times like these when you come to appreciate life more because things could have been much more worse. i started crying a bit because i was thinking... what would've happened if things WERE worse. i'm just thanking God nothing terrible happened.

guess my parents didn't flip out cuz mine's a piece of shit car anyways. unlike sandy… who… if she gets even a little scratch… gets lectured like no other. haha. sad.

damn you cake. damn you. i just wanted that ducker to be gone ASAP. stupid cake. stupid stef.

haha. anywayssss. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIE!!! <3 if only we could've shared it with you.





there's other things that have happened that i'd like to talk about. but i think i'll save that for another time.



a play and a party on saturday. can't wait. XD

fin.

damn duck.



aftermath.


i am SO gonna make one of these babies!