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Gawd I wish that I knew who the heck reads my blogs! I'd very much like to know who the heck cares enough to read my stories. rawr! haha.

Yesterday was pretty awesome. I hung out with Jess, Jean and John (lol. i should call them the J Crew or something [steffy's an outcast! haha.]). Despite the rain and wind it was still fun. :) We drove to Belmont Shores (turns out we've been there before with Michelle&Marvin). We got some food from this deli (forgot what it was called). XP Anyways, we decided to eat at the beach but it was WAY too windy and sand was getting all over the place. So we ended up just eating in the car, then playing some TETRIS babyyy! I won about 2 times :(, Jean 0, Jess 4?, and that damn John won with 5. UGH! That mofo. Anyways, we went walking and it started to rain so we went into this coffee shop (forgot what it was called too. haha.). We stayed there playing pusoy dos and that was a blast! I swear. All I need is a deck of cards and that would be the life of the party. haha. John left to go to work after a while. The rest of us stayed in his car and played Call of Duty to pass the time and wait for the rain to die down. So then the two lovers and the third wheel went walking around, checking out the muy expensive stores. I didn't plan on buying anything anyways but it was fun.

Let's see, Let's see. Afterwards, we drove to Santa Anita mall. On the drive there I decided to sleep but when I heard Jess talking about playing the alphabet game, I couldn't resist! I really do love that game but sometimes you just run out of lists. Haha. Even the car ride was a blast. Oh how I love hanging out with those guys but sometimes I worry if I'm the third wheel or something. :/ Hopefully they don't think that way of me. Yep yep. Went shopping. I bought a couple of halter tops. I wanted a halter dress but sadly I couldn't find any nice ones. Jess spent about $80 and she felt bad because she was "wasting" money. She worked hard for that money. It wouldn't be fair if she never spent any of that hard earned dinero on herself. Right? She deserves it. After a while, my feet started hurting like a BITCH! Fucking boots. I haven't worn them in forever but I didn't expect to be walking so much today. Aww man! I really wanted to see that art gallery cafe thing. I was SO in the mood for some ART! Rawr! :/ Oh well. Next time I suppose.

After the mall, they dropped me off. I ate some food while watching the Laker game with my dad. We laughed at how badly the Spurs were getting their asses whooped. Sandy informed us that her dearest love, Ramley, wasn't watching the game, hoping that if he doesn't watch it, the Spurs might magically win. Haha! Chris called and asked me if I wanted to watch the rest of the game with him. He told me he was speeding to my house because the game was nearly over. We went to Stacey's place but she wasn't there. When she finally came, I was yelling "Open the door! We're missing it!!" Yes, i know the Lakers had pretty much already won the game but you just gotta finish it. Haha. We ate more food and after the game was over, weturned on the Wii! Woot Woot! I wanted to play brawl but Nikki wanted to play sports. :/ Sports was still fun though. I whooped her arse at tennis. Haha. Whooped Chris's ass in tennis. Mwahahaha! He wanted a rematch and he friggin beat me! Rawr! Did some boxing, bowling. Then at some point Chris walked into the living room wearing a tube top. LOL! And I must say... Hilarious shit! Plenty of pictures taken but sadly I'll only be posting up ONE as requested by Chris. I pity the boy but I envy him for his boobs are bigger than mine. LOL.

Me mum called and wanted me home. I was kinda mad because it was so early and it was my first day of freedom and I wanted it to last. But alas, all good things must come to an end. Chrissy drove me home and I went straight to my laptop to watch some anime when I realized that I had Stacey's R4 in my DS. I felt bad but at the same time oh so good because I had an R4 to play with! LOL.

Dearest Chris tells me not to go for it. I want to but... Last time, I didn't listen and look what happened. I think I'll listen this time. Hopefully I do and I don't get hurt. But it's the painful experiences that help you the most right? If someone hurts me, they've helped me learn about trust and about being careful about who I open my heart to. I hate being shy. I wish I could just GO for what I want, fearless of rejection, etc. If i never overcome these obstacles in my life, I'll never be able to realize my potential. I need to appreciate every moment in my life and take those risks because I may never be able to experience some things again. We'll see if I break out of my oh so tight shell. It probably won't happen. Chris doesn't want to see me get hurt again. He doesn't want to see me get played. He's a cousin that cares. I know he does. I don't know what I'm going to do. He's an awesome guy. Outgoing, tells funny stories, listens to awesome music. Good for me right? I need an outgoing guy to help me break out! But still, I feel my shyness wouldn't help at all. I don't want to be with someone if I can't help them grow as a person. I'm so unsure of myself. *sigh* Steffy... what WILL we do with you.

Anyways... On another note I want to have a party! Several parties, in fact. I just need to plan when and who. Hmm... I'll plan later.

WOOT WOOT! It's nearly 4am! I haven't stayed up this late since winter break. HAHA! My first day of freedom was awesome. Thank you to all those who made it so. <3