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aaaah!!!

i love tetris but sometimes it just drives me crazy. jess and i play a LOT during school buuuuut
when her mom picks us up and i close my eyes to sleep, all i see are those fucking blocks falling falling falling!
i just wanna sleep and all i see is tetris!
aaaaah!! the madness!
cyan, orange, yellow, green, purple, red, blue!
one mistake and you could be through!
shapes I, J, L, O, S, T, Z!
i have to think of a strategy.
seriously though, it's really hard to sleep with tetris on my mind. X[ rawr!

anyways... jess has reminded me that now that it's summer, we can get back to watching our anime!! woot woot! yea boiii!! and now i can actually play those ds games that i had bought but never played. lol.

fock i need an external hard drive! i keep downloading and downloading and now i only have 10 GB left on my laptop! aaaarrrrggghhh!

aaaaannnnndddd i want a longboard soooo bad! i had a dream the other night that i was skating and it was fuuuuun! lol. charlie says i should get a sector 9 but first i'll be needing some dineroooo which equals JOB!!! but then i need a car!! and ever since i hit that parked car, my mom's 1982 datsun, now mine, has been deemed undrivable. I mean, it works but my dad says it's unsafe. -_-

one more final to go but my mind has pretty much already checked out of school. so far I have a B in chem.. I only did well on that final because i remembered the answers from the practice midterm, which were exactly the same ones on the final. i had NO idea how to actually solve the problem but thank goodness i remembered the answers. lol. probably an A in soc. an A in history if i only get 4 wrong on the final on friday. probably a C in posc. -_- and obviously an A in theatre. haha.

it would seem that all construction on the house has ceased. now all that's left is an empty, unfinished room that we can't even use. not to mention all that trash just sitting in the backyard. guess it just slipped my parent's mind that we needed a permit in order to do construction on our house. haha. sure, it's nice and quiet now. no more hammering and drilling. but still… that extra room would've been nice. what is to become of that room? i don't know. not sure if they're going to just tear it all down and start all over again or keep working with what they've done. such a waste of money.

gawd I can't stop watching this show! it's so sad though. so much betrayal. deceit. and it seems like his quest will NEVER end. :( I just find it hilarious how in EVERY episode his clothes get thrashed to ribbons and yet at the end of each one, he manages to get the exact same outfit. lol. and YES I know that's how ALL cartoons are but I mean, EVERY episode!? come on! he IS awesome though. kicking ass when necessary, helping pretty much everyone he crosses. i just hate how it seems like he just ends up back to square one at the end of each episode but it's cool cuz it shows how much he's willing to sacrifice for others, even if it means that his quest would never end. the designs for the show are pretty awesome too. :) haha. i barely finished the first season but i likes it mucho. :P hahahahahaha! currently watching one of the funniest episodes. XD [one episode later… ohmaigah another hilarious episode! XDDDD!!!] [one season finale later... "Once upon a time there was a sweet little girl, with a red riding cape and GREAT FLAAAAMING EYEBROWS!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!]

"finally! you're happy again." he said to me a long while back. now just because i've gotten over justin and i like someone else (hate how they call him "the apple guy"), it doesn't exactly mean that i'm happy. i'm not happy that i've lost a friend, maybe two, because things didn't work out and things got AWKWARRRRRD. i DO miss last semester sometimes. those were some awesome times. i miss mike and justin, the two lovers, friends that seem to have drifted away. mike, I still love him. how can anyone NOT love him? and justin, well, i'm pretty much nothing to him nowadays. not even a friendly hello when we see him, which isn't often. but i don't talk to him either so yeah. at least he talks to jess when he hangs out with us. not sure if he just wants to avoid me or if he thinks i want to avoid him. well, I didn't want to avoid him but i was just quiet every time he hung out with us. i mean, he really just broke me and i don't think he knew how bad it was… anyways… i also miss when c&j would come over to my house every friday to watch movies and just spend time with each other. i know it's not good to dwell in the past. i know those days are gone. but is it wrong to say that those days were good to me? things change, people change. it's inevitable. but everything happens for a reason. i remember jess telling me to go for it because she didn't want me to regret never trying. and i really don't regret what happened in the past. it was an experience that i have learned from. so thank you for the memories.

fdsajiofwqoyn! gonna wake up early tomorrow... erm today... to run & play tennis. so… i'll watch the last episode of season one then i'll go to bed. :) talk about other stuff later.

fin.

quick note on cancer sticks. haven't had one in 2 weeks. feeling pretty good about myself. i quit. :)